緣憶 famories -

behind every picture of these i took during loveboat camp, there's a story.
of course i wouldn't talk about them.
not because i don't want to, ... i just can't describe them with mere words.
almost 30 days. with people i don't know from all over the world.
this definitely brought change and other things.. like a lot of feelings.
i met people - who taught me loving, hating, crying, hoping and getting disappointed in a spur of moment.
i used to hate going back to my homeland. but now.. so many places there are filled with memories i made.
with them. with her. with the roommates. with him.
i wished i could turn back time and relive that one month. but i know it wouldn't be the same if i could.
thank you.
vanness, ichigo, jiejie, xiao zhu, etc.
seishun was boiling inside my body.
milktea boxes. umbrella. rain. catching colds. strawberry. ghosts. bugs. bugsspray. bug bits.
love confession. butterfly tattoo. 'drunk'. 'stalker'. kukuku. KTV. kimberley. and and and..
謝謝你們.

if the person whom i told not to catch a cold because that person was standing in the rain ever read this. thank you for teaching me courage. and to love without expecting anything in return. 
 all i wish for now.. is you to be happy. i miss your smile. alot. i think i still like you. and you might be curious why i could like you for so long though i know almost nothing about you. i don't know. i think it's because it is you. when i see you making a sad face, i'm concerned about you. when i see you smile, you make my day. and no, i'm not a stalker. it's not my fault that we keep running into each other. i never did it purposely. maybe it was coincidence. it's quite normal to bump into each other because we are in the same camp. but i don't know since when these 'bumping-into-each-other's became so special and out of normal.. i think it was you. you were the once joking about it all the time at the start and it just became worse. i hope at the end you didn't thought that i consciously follow you and stand right next to you or behind you. i never did. but when i stood still, i'd realize that you were right beside me and i got startled myself though it was nothing peculiar. now thinking back, it was kind of funny. i'm not a stalker. if a girl is in love, she's concerned about the person she likes. i wasn't observing you 24/7, but often realized you when you were in the same room. 
the only two questions i have is: what did you really think of me? i don't trust your attitude while chatting with me on facebook. what bothered you all the time in the camp and made you making that sad face? 

i hope one day i can know the answers to them. i hope i can see you again. and hold the umbrella for you while standing in the rain. loving you while being a complete outsider. thank you for being the reason of happiness for my last months.