真實 -

been thinking a lot about my personality.

i'm not an attention whore but rather a recognition whore. 

normally i never talk to people unless they come to me, but even then i just react to their reactions

or just simply answer their questions. without soul while doing it.

but there is one thing i want everybody who are coincidentally with me like sitting in the same room as me, or in the same classroom as me or just somewhere where people are in the same space as me,

to remember two things about me:

i'm cool and distant.

not that i want to show i'm special or different or "whooh she thinks she's so cool."

but to make it clear for everyone, that i am like that. and if they see me being social or open, they shouldn't think that that mask side of me is the real me. 

i want them to remember

who i really am

from the first moment they see me

even people who have nothing to do with me.

i just want my true traits to be recognized and remembered. 

so at least someone will know when i'm fake and real. 

i've had enough of people around me not realizing me changing or being unusual.