how ridiculous -

some say 'first loves' are bound to end sadly 

it doesn't just end "sadly" but also ridicuously. 

some people might underrestimate the power of a blossoming new-born seed of love that has never learnt the term of love until 'first love' came in. 

this seed is dangerous, it can create miracles like never-forgettable memories carved in your deepest soul but also is the only chain in your life that will never let you go because it is so heavy and strong as if you are carrying the whole world behind you. 

the seed of 'first love' uses a lot of place in your heart because you are new to planting this kind of 'love' in your heart so you (unconsiously) use more 'heart soil' for it than the later loves. and just as the flower dies in the end, it leaves a big hole in your heart. 

however, this seed continues living in your heart but isn't easy to wake up again. 

sometimes you even think that you are not able to revive the plant again because you killed it once.

and sometimes you are afraid to revive it because the plant damages your heart at the same time you kill it. 

how ridiculous.

it's like you are giving a chance to yourself to love but at the same to die. (and kill another plant of someone else's.)

how ridiculous. 

what is the magic behind the 'first love' that it gives us such a never-ending curse. 

and the most ridiculous thing is

once you introduced the seed to your heart,

it never leaves you. it torments you, it excites you, it saddens you, it bothers you, it gives you a hard time for the rest of your life no matter if you are in love or not. 

how ridiculous. 

why are humans so stupid to let something so dangerous inside them.

or

maybe it was always inside us

and waits to be awaken

by the key of the 'first love'
that is bound to give you sadness..
and eternal meaning of love.