不明白 -

i used to think i'd break if there was no one who could understand me

i struggled to be real, to make the people important to me understand me

it didn't work

then i wished to meet that one person that could understand me and i believed in that person's existence

now

i'm used to the truth that no one could ever understand me. fully. 

it's not a bad thing. not for you, neither for me.

it's solely an adaption to a cruel fact. 

i don't feel sad about it.

i just feel that my heart has departed a little bit from me. 

that's all

i don't feel empty or sad right now.

i just kind of.. became a stronger person.

not that kind of strong but

stronger. more heartless. but also more understanding.

the fact that nobody could ever understand you

tells me

that it's okay not to believe too much

there's less to blame on people

because it's not their fault

it's not unfair at all

we are all just people

very different people

with sometimes similar experiences

which are never the same

because we

are all different

so it's okay.

right?